Archive for February, 2012

February 29, 2012

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I planned so much for today: photography, skating, concert of The Balkan Consort. And I did nothing. So typical. Since my depression I have batteries for only one event per day. And I need a three days recovery phase spent in my pajamas at home after every activity. This constant weariness without any reason is really demotivating.

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February 28, 2012

365/59

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Another visit in another ministry. I really, really do hope one day I will win back all the incredible amount of money and time I already have donated to the Hungarian Bureaucracy for getting permissions, getting those permissions translated and getting the translated permissions authenticated.

And, as if it was not enough, it started snowing again. Since my depression I’m not as good at welcoming unexpected events as I used to be, so I spent the whole day on the edge of being hysterical. And it is not over yet. I am curious if I manage the day without murdering  somebody.

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February 27, 2012

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Móricka’s first eating out. It would have surely been more stylish to make a good beginning for him and visit some famous and quality Hungarian patisserie like Gerbeaud or Daubner but, well, life sucks nowadays and we have no money. So we just went to the McDonald’s nearby and used some bonus coupons for free coffees and cheap cookies. Móricka slept through the whole trip, anyway.

February 26, 2012

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A walk with my sister and Móricka in the nearby cemetery.

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February 26, 2012

Budapest, Dunapart

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Yesterday’s walk along the bank of the Danube on the Pest side.

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February 25, 2012

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Holocaust memorial for the people shot into the Danube during the last few months of WW 2. Life was relatively safe in Hungary until the spring of 1944 due to the fact that of both the prime minister and the governor of Hungary were unwilling to participate in the organisation of the deportations. Only after the forced resignation of the minister and the capturing and detention of the governor’s son in concentration camp Dachau, genocide begun, but then with great efficiency. Holocaust in Hungary lasted actually only a few months but it was still time enough left to kill more than 600 000 people.

February 24, 2012

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I liked the mild colours of today’s walk – spring is coming and it’s just about time.

February 23, 2012

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I spent the whole day visiting ministries and getting documents copied, translated, verified, validated and stamped. With every paper rises the immidiate need for three more obligatory papers my existence is problematic without. I started this whole process one month ago and I still don’t even dare to dream of starting to work. The day Hungarian Bureaucracy causes my tragical, way too early death, is near.

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February 22, 2012

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Let the right one in!

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February 21, 2012

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To the huge amounts of curious people (all the seven of them) who found my blog today through various combinations of the words “ice”, “danube” and “budapest”: I am sorry to disappoint you, but there is no ice on the Danube anymore. At least not in Budapest.

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February 20, 2012

a fine and private place

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February 20, 2012

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Móricka’s bath is ready for use.

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February 19, 2012

365/50

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Another lame day of drinking coffee, eating chips and watching Desperate Housewives. I want my real life back. I even miss Holland. And that’s always a real sign of my deepest despair.

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February 18, 2012

an almost-spring walk with Móricka

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February 18, 2012

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The Cat, getting her daily intake of Vitamin D.

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February 17, 2012

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My wet shoe insoles, drying on the radiator. I came home in early October when the weather was still nice, wearing a cord jacket, a jeans skirt, some short-sleeved t-shirt and ballerinas. I was sure two weeks will be time enough for getting better, and I planned to go back to Holland on the 14th of October. Obviously I didn’t managed it. I spent almost five months at home, most of it with being sick with depression, and without having any warm clothes to wear. Every time I need or want to go out I still have to borrow the boots, coat and gloves of my sister. This is not exactly the way I planned to spend this winter.

February 16, 2012

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Cute fish at the Turkish place I ate lunch today.

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February 15, 2012

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It’s snowing again and this makes me happy.

February 14, 2012

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Valentine’s Day never really found its way into the Hungarian culture, nor did Halloween. I’m sure there are a lot of people celebrating them, mostly teenagers or young adults, but it never became truely ours. Today I tried to find some signs on the streets to prove the world that we know and celebrate Valentine’s Day, but I didn’t succeed. I even visited our most tourist-beladen street, Váci utca to look for some big red heart-shaped balloons or something adequate for this day, but the only big red heart I found was a decoration in the shopwindow of Intimissimi. And I clearly should draw the line somewhere, so I won’t start posting pictures of lower bodies made of plastic and wearing sexy thongs, even if it’s the only way to prove the presence of Valentine’s Day in the Hungarian culture; so instead of big red heart-shaped balloons I offer you a photo of our Liberty-bridge (called Szabadság-híd) by night. Take it as the declaration of my love for my city.

February 14, 2012

Budapest – ice on the Danube

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February 13, 2012

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Due to the extremely cold weather for the past two weeks, the Danube started to freeze over. The last time it was completely covered with ice so that people could walk on it, was in 1982, thirty years ago. I really do hope it won’t happen this winter; I don’t want our selfmade Glorious King and National Hero of Orbán Viktor to get the idea of having a coronation party on the frozen ice as did our great king Mátyás in 1458 (he was actually the last Hungarian politician who managed to keep up with Europe). Making a big theatrical scene and accepting the admiration of the manipulated plebs while thinking himself as big as Mátyás but much cooler, is exactly his thing. And, I am sad to admit, this is also what the biggest part of the Hungarian population would appreciate. Why can’t we behave normal, I really wonder.

 

February 12, 2012

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My childhood playground.

February 12, 2012

The Cat – the seven minutes after midnight update

by ada

Just to make it clear for everybody how hard and cruel is the life this poor, hunted creature has to suffer.

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February 11, 2012

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The Cat suffers from massive and stable separation angst since the birth of Móricka, whom she genuinly hates. Luckily Móricka isn’t interested in her at all (actually, he is only interested in eating and being carried the whole day). Maybe in a few months we will have a cat without tail and a child without eyes, but for the moment they just ignore each other and peace reigns upon us.

So The Cat sticks to me like a fridge magnet all the time, because her hurt little soul needs constant attention. Wherever I go, she comes with, whatever I do, she takes part. It’s like having a small, black, rather annoying shadow, but I like to have her around. Today she helped me decluttering my bureau (yes, that’s how a desk looks after four months of depression). As you see from the photo, she is very enthusiastic about the whole process.  She clearly is a master of Getting Things Done. Exactly like me.

 

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February 10, 2012

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Homemade pizza or, actually, small sandwiches. I have a long history and the amazing talent of ruining every food I try to create, so I started out with no expectations at all. But it turned out to be quite delicious (but not “pizza”, though).

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February 9, 2012

365/40

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Today I wore my Ridiculously Disgusting Yellow Tights. I’m not passionate about clothes, I’m not even interested in them, which is rather an unfortunate attitude for a girl, even if smart, like me. In our society, being simply smart or simply pretty is not enough for survival anymore. You have to be smart and pretty and up to date, you have to cook marvellous while being enviromentally conscious, having strong opinions on everything, being familiar with every new movie, reading all the books that count, having carreer, earning money but living frugal, wearing cute outfits and dating hilarious men, having six homeschooled kids and making your own soap. I guess I already lost the game.

But even if I normally am a jeans with sweater girl, sometimes, quite unreasonably, I get a crush on something extraordinary (ugly). And since the long years of depression have already thaught me to appreciate every small thing that makes me feel happy if only for a moment, I do not resist this desire for wearing crazy clothes anymore. I welcome everything that has the potential to make me feel better.

(And yes, I know that our floor desperately needs some cleaning and my shoes will lose their soles pretty soon.)

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February 9, 2012

Budapest, Belváros – Part 2

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February 9, 2012

Budapest, Belváros – Part 1

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A walk we took a few days ago (Before Snow) in the inner city of Pest.

February 8, 2012

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Traditional Hungarian homemade butchery, received today from my aunt from North Hungary. I do love traditional Hungarian food and celebrate every science article that gives objective evidence of saturated animal fat being not that bad for us at all as we usually think. Our national kitchen was claimed to be delicious but terribly unhealthy for decades, because of our fanatic love for lard and goose fat, but now it starts being proven that we were right through all those thousand years. I’m all for science and science is all for saturated animal fat nowadays.

No offense for vegetarians, though. I’m aware of the fact that there are alternatives for everybody to chose, and science is not always the main factor when it comes to establishing eating habits. For me science is important, it helps me getting my depression and my lactose intolerance under control, but actually, I really, really love to eat the Hungarian way.

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February 7, 2012

365/38

by ada

I visited three doctors in a row today. I’m a hero!

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